So this evening it finally happened! I went out for a walk with my husband, as a part of his medical recovery as as we stopped for him to rest we sat down and discussed the future. We are still struggling to come to terms with the fact that our stable life was turned upside down after being chewed up swallowed by a killer whale who wasn’t a fan of the flavor and spew us back out for us to pick up the pieces of whats left and move forward.
The reality is; we are living in uncertain times. Reminds me of many bible verses but in my younger adult life I wasn’t able to correlate it to my life as I can today. My husbands career is in the balance. We don’t know if he can return to his career due to the extend of his medical needs. And even if the surgeon clears him there is going to always be that lingering thought in the back of our minds if something will happen. Also what if he can permanently only work light duty, would he have to resign?
The one thing that is certain, my faith remains strong and we pray for wisdom for today and tomorrow. We are being proactive and cutting back on non essentials and paying off debt as we prepare to tackle medical bills, expensive co pays for treatments. Let me say, it is so hard to downsize your lifestyle and account for every penny. It is a struggle but we are working hard to become minimalists. I mean come on, how many people actually plan for medical emergencies? Can you pay your mortgage off one income? Can you then maintain all essentials i.e Lights, water, health insurance, food, school lunches for the kids? These are the things we face but not stress about. Trust me I’m a person who in my opinion is genetically disposed to see the glass as half EMPTY. Stress should have been my middle name at birth. If anyone knows how to be stressed, worried and be anxious about any and everything, its me! I’m currently reading Anxious for Nothing by Max Lucado which I am using some of the main Ideas to assist me in keeping my faith and not stress. I realize that while we are in uncertain times we have ALWAYS been in uncertain times– as life is never promised to any of us day to day. We life each day anticipating a tomorrow but tomorrow is not promised. Knowing this we don’t sit around worried that tomorrow wont come. We press forward, dream and work hard on having the life we want. With that being said, Our focus is planning for the worst possible financial situation, weathering the storm and coming out strong. Plan, pray, refrain from worry and thank God for the peace he will provide during these uncertain times.